Lip's

Sometimes.

2011-08-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i have to expect the unexpected.

Sometimes the expected shock me.

Sometimes i want to be bad person.

Sometimes i hate to be that way.

Sometimes i envy those have things that i want.

Sometimes i hate being myself.

Sometimes i am lazy.

Sometimes i wish my dreams have all came true.

Sometimes people just annoy me on the perfect day.

Sometimes i hate them so much as i could kill them.

Sometimes i just have to be selfish.

Sometimes i don't have to care.

Sometimes i just have to walk on my way.

Sometimes i just need someone special.

Sometimes i just miss you so much.

How are you doing?

I know you will be going somewhere far away from here.

Please take good care of yourself.

I know that you will forget me.

I know i had missed the chance i had.

I know you will be seeing someone that is far better than me.

Take care, dear.

I will wait until we meet.

I will try my best to talk with you.

I will, I will.

I can't do more promise.

I am just a loser.

It started.

2011-06-20T18:18:00.002+08:00

Yeap, all of my friends have gone for studies and of course me myself have got into university life. One word, tough. I gonna got on the pace with the lectures and tutorials. I have to stress myself to face the coming tests, reports and assignments. There is no time for me to fool around because that will lead me to blank-ness. I gonna always remember the 2 days I was deep under the cliff.

I have really be independent a lot since i gonna do all my things by my own, without the help of my mum :( I got sick last 2 weeks and i didn't go to see a doctor :P maybe I shouted a lot in the house and lost my voice. It is fun to live with all my friends and there sometimes just... hard to get to know new friends. However I think time will lead me to more friends. So far, my classmates are quite friendly and most of them are from KL or Selangor.

And hell yeah~ I had got my baby last Friday. I just bought Dell Inspiron 15 and I am loving it like my baby :D Thanks for all my friends accompanied me go to Lowyat and look for it.

What i can say is that all things now are settled and i can focus on my studies. It is hard for me and I will still not letting go of my aim. I will strike and be proud of myself. *fingers crossed*

Bullshit?

2011-04-28T01:26:00.001+08:00

Suddenly have to mood to write something especially at the moment I give up something, well it is not everything, luckily.

FYI, I will be going to UTAR for my further studies. Not sure it is a good choice. I will be taking Foundation in Science ++ Electrical and Electronic Engineering. Will be flying on 15th May, the day I have been waiting for, maybe not. There you go, uncertainties. I don’t like the feel of being uncertain, seriously. What to do? I can’t predict what happens next. I have no power. I am no superman, sadly.

As you all may know, moving out from the family you have been with for like almost 20 years is a damn hard job. Yes, I call it a job, a job that should be paid very highly. I hate this job so much but what to do? It sucks. Settling down and move into a new environment would easier when you have friends. Yes, I have friends. I should be happy right? Some had cheer me for having such big gang of friends. Some had warn me that it will be troublesome. You see, uncertainties.

Let go so that I won’t be hated or unfavourable because I am the newbie right? Time should be used to do our own things :) like Tangled?

Well, this is my wallpaper now :) cute huh?

Rabbit Year~

2011-02-17T00:41:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year mood is still in my body. I still dream of gambling :D

This year was a little bit different, visiting more friends’ house, and of course more fun :)

The Eve ~ Tired
This day was the busiest day, more works :( Stayed home and helping parents doing all the households. Dexter called to Suzanne’s place for lami but couldn’t make it :C Had the house and everything totally clean. Went Grandma’s house for the great dinner. Cousins were there and we made “Tang Yuan” with red bean fillings :P Everyone loved it :)

1st Day ~ Boring! as usual =.=
Went to dad’s office as we did every year. Meeting his boss and comrades. Bro met his Prudential’s friends. *yeah, my bro is one of the agents of Prudential now* Watched my one and only lion dance this year, it was boring though, nothing challenging =.= Went to Yu Yuan because my dad is MCA committee member. Saw many familiar faces and also Jeremy’s dad. Went to Grandma’s house for lunch AND dinner. Gambled with cousins and played mafia :) Dexter didn’t open house this year which he did it on the 1st day last year.

2nd Day ~ Catching up
Went to my uncle’s place, meeting with more cousins who we could rarely meet. Talking with relatives and good to hear what they doing :) Went to KwanHL’s place and a lot of people were already there: Soong, PangSF, Felix, PeiC, Joyce, Kelly, Drey, TanPL, ToKY, WongKM, KevinT, KelvinW, and also Bii. Great to meet them but still i couldn’t meet LuMG and Edmund :( Skyped with Jeremy and let him to gamble through the webcam =.= Gambled for a while and won some :D Later i bid goodbye with KwanHL *paiseh not having the dinner there* as i got go back to my Grandma’s house for a HUGE dinner.

There were relatives, all of them who in SDK. Helped out for the dinner. Seriously, there were too MANY faces and there were 6 tables!! Each with 6 delicious homemade dishes. Later, for the 1st time, me and my cousins and 2 neighbours moved to one of my aunt’s house for playing lami :D because the adults wanted to play lami also but there was only one lami table in my Grandma’s house. We played lami in my aunt’s house until 3 something, profited also :D

3rd Day ~ TAGADA & APPOLO!!! :D
This day is like fully booked day. I planned to go to Mr Tan’s house *my add maths tuition teacher* in the morning but i couldn’t make it as i played lami too much and sleeping “late”. Surprisingly, Celes didn’t go also as she was the one who suggested.

Went to Zi Heng’s house. ChungVS, Leng, Arjunan, Ivan, Lai, Patrick, DanielT, MandaP, Drey, Joseanne, TsaiSM, MichelleF, LiewKS, TaiSY, HengBM, LimCF, WarrenC were there. Played a few rounds of ChoDaiDi. Then they tried to skype with Jeremy and start gambling. I wasn’t in the mood yet so i played PS instead with Patrick. *Jeremy, don’t blame me ya :S* Had lunch then i start gambling DokDok. Got bored so i stopped for a while. Ah Sui’s gang came and we started gambling DokDok at the other table. Ah Kok was the Chiong and he was the lucky star that day. He got 9 for several times IN A ROLL!!! and sometimes even with 9 dokdok!!! All of us claimed he must have wearing red underwear XD So i ended up nothing profited nothing lost in Zi Heng’s house. Bid goodbye with Zi Heng and headed to DanielT’s House before going to Daxter’s house. Good to visit Daniel’s house as that was my first time and catching up with him.

Reached Daxter’s house and played lami with Daniel, Michelle and Joey :D Had dinner and hangout for a while. They(Ricky,Joey,Fiona,WongKD,Kok,ChinYK,Clarence,Johnnie,Michelle,ChungPY) planned to go to funfair. *Ah Sui didn’t go that night because she went to kampung to expand my business :D* It was the best night to go as it didn’t rain for a WHOLE day!!! So me and Daniel asked ChungVL to go as he was driving :D

Then the whole gang moved to funfair, there were A LOTS OF cars, causing traffic jam in Indah, they were all going to funfair also. ChungVL parked the car near Jesselton there. Met up with Mandy and Philip at the entrance. Bought the entrance tickets and got in. Bought some coins and decided to play the TAGADA, so called the washing machine. There were hell lots of people ~~queuing up~~ rushing up to get in. We waited like those people playing for 3 or 4 rounds and got fed up!! Planned to squeeze ourselves into the crowd. For couples, the boy protect the girl. For singles, like me, i was forced and pushed by ChungVL and successfully cut through the crowd. But, when i looked back, only Fiona and WongKD managed to get through. The others like STILL not even moved a bit =.= So we had to wait again for 2 rounds then the whole gang managed to get through. When we all got into the TAGADA, only DanielT was left out in the crowd =.= We all had fun shouting and shouting!!! <:D We got to hold tight to the steel bar, especially by the time when the machine shaking. We waited a while for DanielT’s turn to play, alone :(

Later, we walked around. Although it didn’t rain for a day but the ground was still muddy and everyone were walking very carefully as all were wearing new shoes >:d Philip was the only one wearing the most suitable shoes, CROCS =.= Then we decided to play APPOLO. Going through the same super crowded squeezing condition and finally got into the APPOLO. Only half of the gang managed to play in the 1st round. The rest got to play in the 2nd round. Then we planned to go to 7 Heaven and Jesselton to have a drink but both places were full house. Bumped into TracyK and Shalina who both worked part time in 7 Heaven. Met ChangNK also who already turned into a young lady. Then we went to the 99 Convenience Store to but drinks instead. At the end, all spilt and got home.

No body gambled in my Grandma’s house that night so i got home straight away without any lami :( Planned the activities next day and slept around 2.

4th Day ~ Different
Yeap, the 4th day of CNY this year was different from all the years before. Usually, i would go to Zi Heng’s house but this year he got to go back KK and the IS reopened on the next day. Thus, he made his open house on the 3rd day this year. Dexter called me to join him, LimSR and Suzanne for yum cha. So i called TanPL along for lunch. We all met up at THE BOSS. Chatting and catching up for quite a lot. Miss the way how we gossip as i met Dexter for the 1st time after SPM :)

Later, ChungVL came and it was time for me to go as both of us got to go ChungPY’s place. I bid goodbye with Dexter and the gang. Reached CPY’s place and all of them (funfair gang + ah sui) were already there. Chatting for a little. CPY’s mum was very friendly and always mixed up my name and ChungVL’s =.= i played lami with 3 girls (michelle,joey,ahsui) and the others played DokDok. In between, CPY’s mum and Clarence joined in and there went all the money i profited =.= Played till 4 and we all headed to Mandy’s place. There were dramas on the way ~.~

Joyce, MandaS, MandaP, Kylie, Cath, PangSF and Philip were already there. I straight away played DokDok with Mandy, Philip, MandaP and also PangSF. Then Leng and Soong came. Soong joined the game. At the end, profited just a littttle bit. Big goodbye with all of them around 6 and headed back to home.

Went to my Gandma’s house as there was a buffet also, paid by my aunt who came back from Scotland in January. There were quite expensive dishes but not really enjoyed it =.= Played lami and fireworks with cousins. Then i called it a day.

P.S. I forgot to tell Soong something, quite important to him i guess :S
I also forgot to give the card to KwanHL which was from Jeremy :|

Sandakan Highland

2011-02-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

Sandakan is now known for its coldness. The weather here is as cold as Genting Highland. But, as a contrast with Genting Highland, Sandakan offers more seafood. Somehow i will say there will be less seafood sold in the market as there is always raining, super heavily.

Some might prefer the coldness as if they lived in UK or USA. Some might not because they like the sunny day. For me, it’s okay for both if it didn’t hit the limits of mine.

On 29th, there was a new experience for me. My house was ALMOST flooded. I remember i slept at 2am that day after facebooking and chatting. I was the last one of my family who laid on bed. That time it was raining really really heavily.

After 2 hours or so, around 4am, my mum woke me up =.=
Mum: Lip!! Wake up!! Daddy has gone to the office!!
Lip: hmmmm……
Mum: Quick!! Wake up!! The garage is flooded!!!
Lip: WHAT??!! O.O

I quickly jumped out from bed. My brother had also woke up already. Yeah, the front part of my house was flooded. The muddy water ran quickly, just a little bit more (like 2cm more) then it will ran into the house. I was still in the shock and my mind gone blank. I stressed myself and quickly changed my cloths.

The whole neighborhood was in a mess and all were awake. Hate the cars were going there and here. They could actually affecting the flow of the water, remember that was only 2cm!!! X.x

My dad had gone to the office because there was landslide behind the building. My brother guarded for the water level, shouted for us if the water really flow into the house. My mum prepared the clothes, used towels… I twisted my brain to think what will really happen if the water flowed in. At the same time, pray for god, really hardly.

The kitchen was the lowest part of the house, thus it was flooded, just a bit. Helped mum to put the clothes trying to stop the water flowing in. Suddenly thought of the toilets, they were started to flood also. Quickly went to search for the plasticine in the old toys box. Founded, and used it to stuck the holes on the toilets floor.

Settled and the only danger was the front part of the house. Hoping it to stop raining. It was so close then all the water would be running in. I thought of anything that would really happen if that nightmare happened. Moved everything we could to the tables, chairs, as long as it was high enough. Dad called and he said the town was totally in a mess, and of course warning him not to put himself in danger.

Around 6am, the rain stopped and was “calm down” and the muddy water slowly flowed away. Got to start cleaning the kitchen, toilets and finally the garage. When we almost finish cleaning everything, dad safely came back home. Settled down and we ate maggi for breakfast as it was already 7 something.

Heard there were people died in this nature’s revenge. There are also landslide everywhere, including Grandview *Bo, is your dad okay??* There are trees branches falling down, blocking the traffic. The tree at the Sung Siew’s junction fell down on the old Girl Guide’s hunt. The town is like a muddy pond. I really hope it stops raining and so we can really enjoy Chinese New Year.

The TM line was off for DAYS!!! That’s why i could not online and so, i did really felt like dying!! I heard other areas’ line were repaired. That’s so unfair!!!! >:O The entertainment left was only the TV =.= My missions going to friends’ place in CNY should be gambling *BOBO~*, catching up and also ONLINE!!! Ohyea, that’s also why i have that much time to write the longgggggggg posts =.=

This was the conditions of the Sandakan Town =.=

The HANGOVER

2011-02-17T00:29:00.001+08:00

“Hangout + Sleepover = Hangover”
*no alcohol involved in this term*

Jeremy and I planed something to do in his last day staying in Sandakan. That was 23rd Jan. We just left 24th out so that he can do his last minute packing before going to the airport at 5pm that day.

I did promised him that his last day will the wildest as we had the plans of swimming, dinner, funfair and finally sing k. If you thought that the spontaneous day is the most adventurous, you could be really wrong!!! As what Soong always says, it is only “pi si” XD

Golf Club.Drink.JeremyPangSoongLip
At that day, i called Jeremy around 4 and luckily we solved the little miscommunication again =.= We met up in the GC and later Ivan showed up who actually went there to sing k with his girl. Soong and Pang showed up after like 10 minutes. Soong came with no bag on his hands so that means he would not be swimming. We canceled the swimming plan as Jeremy and i feel like not swimming already and i can imagine there would not be much fun.

Later we had a drink there and start thinking what to do to fill the time before having dinner. We abandoned those unreliable and came up with the idea of going to ah Sui’s place to play mahjong again :D

Sui’s House.Mahjong.JeremyPangSoongLip
Reached ah Sui’s house and her relatives were already there playing mahjong. So we played on the other table and that was the 1st time for Soong playing mahjong. We played a few rounds and let Soong to practice. And of course, we were actually listening to how the elderly played the next table. We especially me felt ashamed because one of ah Sui’s aunts gave a what-the-hell-are-you-playing look when she was looking at my tiles =.= This was all because we were only playing for chicken game (gai wu), the lowest grade in mahjong. Since mahjong was so much fun, we decided to play again later after sing k :D

Penang.Dinner.ArjunanTristanFabianGaryJoyceKylieJeremyPangSoongLip
Someone called and we headed to a restaurant called PENANG, not the island in the west Malaysia =.= The food were nice and the portion were huge, like cooking for the whole kampung =.= Soong was the one who ordered all the food and noob him, he left out the ikan pangang. So when we all were full except Tristan and Fabian who have to wait for the fish since they just ordered another bowl of rice ~.~ Time is money, so we, JPSL went to the temple but it is already closed. We went back to the PENANG and foot the bill.

Encore.SingK.ArjunanTristanFabianGaryJoyceKylieJeremyPangSoongLip
We canceled the funfair plan since no one got the mood of going. That pi si Soong felt it was dangerous except the washing machine =.= So later we headed to Encore and sing k for 2 hours. Trust me, honey is the perfect dinks when you sing. There were sentimental Sinn, pub rock Bo and chinese dragon Soong :)

Sui’s House.Mahjong.JeremyPangSoongLip
We sent Tristan home and headed to ah Sui’s place again. Mahjong!!! We started at 11 something, all were excited and fun. Ah Sui was nice enough to be a waitress and also a sifu to the amateur Soong. On the half way, around 1, all were already exhausted and sleepy. We decided not going home and sleepover at Jeremy’s place. Called my brother who was actually sleeping already not to wait me for going back and lock the gate and door. We continued playing *yea,the spirit was still there=.=* until 2. Before we said goodbye to ah Sui, Soong wanted to make a LOVE heart with the mahjong tiles =.= Played and joked awhile with the vibrating massage pillow XD Later, headed to Jeremy’s place.

Bo’s House.Sleepover.JeremyPangSoongLip
For sure Jeremy’s parents were already dreaming when we got into the house. We took turn to take bath. Then i realized why does Jeremy always SS about himself XD We facebook-ed and watched tv for awhile and the time was already passed 3. Soong was the first one who wanted to get in bed. This was because he slept pretty “early” the day before. We all got into the bed and yea Jeremy’s room has 2 beds which perfectly fit in 4 persons :) There was also a little “pillow fight” =.= For the whole night, i was “served” by the miss cold wind and i could felt myself shivering in the middle of the night <:E

Bo’s House.Planing.ChoDaiDi.JeremyPangSoongLip
Woke up actually quite early, around 8 i guess, because of the freezing cold wind =.= Saw Jeremy was actually doing his homework, last minute!!! :P Got back to sleep and woke up again around 10 that time. Soong had to go back home first as his mum called. We planed where should we going later. Originally me and Pang got to go back home and later meeting up with Jeremy in the airport around 5. But Jeremy called Soong to come back and have lunch at Jeremy’s grandma house. We bet all our faith on Soong to come back. While waiting for Soong, we played cho dai di. Got no luck =.= Soong did came back around 1 and we headed to Bo’s grandma house.

Bo’s Grandma House.Lunch.JeremyPangSoongLip
Had lunch and had a tour around the house. It was actually my 2nd time visiting there and i got the 2nd angpau from Bo’s grandma. Cup of tea right Jeremy?? XD We chatted a little and planed to yam cha somewhere in the town since that time was around 2 and Jeremy got to go back home at 3 something to do last minute packing.

English Tea House.-too disgusting to recall-.JeremyPangSoongLip
Jeremy bid goodbye with his grandparents and we headed to Bistro. Bistro had not start business yet. Then we decided to go Balin instead but there were no packing space. Fully parked =.= We went a few rounds and gave up and went up to English Tea House instead. What happened there was totally nightmare, sorry not beautiful nightmare ~.~ The drinks were horrible disgusting stinky ones. Imagine that the vomiting taste still remains in your stomach for hours <:C

Bo’s House.Wait.Chat.JeremyPangSoongLip
Headed back to Jeremy’s home. Waited him to finish packing. Chatted with Soong about the untraceable future and 5D friends. The clock stroke 4.40 and we headed to the airport.

Airport.~~Sayonara~~.BLANK.ArjunanJoyceKylieJeremyPangSoongLip
Reached airport and Arjunan, Joyce and Kylie were already there. We then went to the air-con cafe/restaurant upstairs. Chatted for awhile. Jeremy later received a call and went out. We continued to chat. When J got back, i thought it was time to check in and go into the departure hall. But instead, he sat down and said his flight is canceled O.O He did grinned for that. And that’s why i didn’t trust him at all. But Joyce wanted to trust him and i stopped it. For clarify, we all went down to look on the screen there. Surprisingly, Jeremy was right =.= My mind was blank that time, totally.

PSL’s House.Challenges.Bath.JeremyPangSoongLip
Soong was quick and he asked everyone to sleepover at his place. And of course, we could hangout for the whole night. We went to Pang’s place so that he could take his cloths and so. Next, we headed to my place too. I had already expected that my mum wouldn’t allow me to sleepover at Soong’s place. And so, she did commanded. X.x Luckily she didn’t asked much what happened the other night. I took my bath as my mum insisted me to. Later then, we headed to Soong’s house. Pang and Soong took their bath and we hangout in Soong’s room for awhile.

JSZ.Pizza Hut.Bo’s House.Dinner.JeremyPangSoongLip
We then headed to “Jim Sa Zui”, a restaurant in Prima Square to have dinner. Then we headed to Pizza Hut also. No, not dinner again =.= We just went there ~~to show ourselves~~ because of Daryl’s BD party for only less than 3 minutes =.= We headed to Bo’s place again so he can pack some cloths to sleepover at Soong’s there.

Sui’s House.Mahjong.GaryJeremyPangSoongLip
We headed to ah Sui’s house AGIAN. Before that, i called her to ask whether we(Pang,Soong,me) could go to her house to play mahjong again since she didn’t know Jeremy’s flight was canceled. She was tricked and shocked when Jeremy showed up :D We played for several hours and then Gary showed up who wanted to go have a drink.

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We headed to Bistro as we couldn’t manage to go in the afternoon. There were many people and I spotted…… :D The music and atmosphere made me felt like dancing~~ Then i followed Gary’s car back home and expected to see Jeremy again in the airport the next day but i didn’t :C

Brain?.Thoughts.Lip
Counted the hours we had spent together, it was more than 30 hours!! That can be one of my accomplishments. The longest i ever had so far. Expecting more to come, more fun. Realized that to let something to be spontaneous are always better than the planned. I can experience that sleepover and usual hangout is totally different, somehow you can say it is all to do with the feelings. Spending time with these guys making me to think over again what to do with friendship. Sometimes we really do have to sacrifice, and you don’t really feel it if you enjoyed it. I am very thankful to Soong because he is the one driving all the time. Without him, the whole plan pergi masak bubur lah!! Soong also fell sick after the sleepover in Bo’s place. In contrast and for one more time, the reality hits my head, someone should not be trusted. Think it over and over, should have blamed myself for not breaking the rules. And that goes some rules are meant to be broken. But still, the bc plan is ON, right Bo?? I can imagine how should i deal with my roommates or housemates next time. It is hard but after all, i am the one who becomes tougher. All in all, words are not enough to describe what had happened, but they are already in the memories, without a delete button :)

The Day

2011-01-21T18:21:00.001+08:00

Long time for me not writing a thing in my blog. Kind of being lazy, in this long holiday.

Okay. SPM is a history now. Do not really having much feeling for it now IF no one mentioned how difficult we all got through it. The last day of SPM was quite emotional. I still have the image vividly in my mind when i am waiting for my dad to come after i finished my Chinese paper. Dexter and Ricky were also there. And that was the last time i met Dexter until now. How sad :( waving goodbye to them and also to my school. How ridiculous that for some reasons i wish that day to come so badly but i was sad instead =.=

Holiday started. I was totally into movies and computer and facebook AGAIN. Not feeling like going out of the house. And that time i was having a concept that I DESERVED A HOLIDAY!!! After a week and more staying at home and then i and my family went to KK AGAIN. Bought some clothes, not as much as i expected. Maybe KK is already cannot satisfy my shopping desires already =.=

Met Jeremy in KK one day. Sitting down in Starbucks and had a nice talk with him. If i am not mistaken, seems like i was the one doing all the talking =.= should blame that he likes gossips very much and couldn’t get the latest info when staying in Australia. I think we sat there for a couple of hours. Great to see him again though, not really affected by the new culture :)

2011 came. Spent the count down moment with family in my dad’s office. Watched the fireworks in the town and eating the roasted chicken wings :D

Enjoyed the long holiday again. Most of my close friends went to IS, starting their paths to reach their dreams. Sincerely wish them doing good and success in the near future. For me, i do research for my future too, discussing with my family and friends. Just to make sure i can achieve what i want to achieve in the future and don’t regret for what i chose. For now, there are still some decisions to make. Will have a well-planed plan by the time of CNY.

There are outings in this holiday too. Thanks to Jeremy, a one-day-not-go-out-will-die guy always plans to get out from his home, doing something to kill the time, so called “socialize”. We did planed some and i joined some of his activitieS, details: Jeremy's blog~ So far, the most memorable was the spontaneous adventurous backpacking journey. That happened was because of some miscommunication =.=

These days when i am not going out with Jeremy, i did some cleaning of my room and help my mum to do some housekeeping. I throw a lot of stuff and yet i still have 3 drawers to be cleaned.

Back to today, it is my 19th Birthday :D or i can say i have completed my 18 years journey on Earth. I am sure there are more and more to come. There are still many new faces i should get to know. There are still many challenges awaiting for me. There are still many loves i would die for :D HA!!

Ohyea, i learned how to play lami and mahjong(60%) already. Thanks to Jeremy again, the addicted gambler and it was also a part of the spontaneous day. So, i can play even more games in the coming CNY :D Somehow i feel sorry for Jeremy because he will be facing books but not cards :DDDDDDD LALALA~~

Bye and Hello~

2010-12-16T14:46:00.001+08:00

I’m now officially out of braces family :DDD

Conclusion…
Bye braces and Hello retainer!!! :)

P.S. Amanda Lo was the 1st friend who saw me without braces :)

:)

2010-10-24T20:39:00.001+08:00

Sometimes adding a smile just makes everything totally the opposite way. Making life simple. We have enough of stress, sorrow, and sadness. It can be simple as we want it to be. It can be totally positive. It can be full of rainbows instead of gloomy clouds.

I am uncertain of my future. Kind of missing in the mid way. Now just left two and pick one and that will be my destiny. For sure, I will be apart from where i used to know. And of course, adapting myself in a new world. Feeling alone but i am excited to discover what will be coming in my way. I know I have a lot to learn, way more than what I expected. Life is tough, I have to be tougher.

Good luck, all my dearest friends. I love everyone of you. Take care and may your guardians always by your side :)

Am I having this feeling too soon??

Friends

2010-10-23T17:47:00.004+08:00

There are much more meaning than just having friends around. We need friends to be there when there are something we can’t tell or share with our parents. We gone through thick and thin together. We celebrate. We cheer. We cry. We shout. We hold each other together. We fight and be friends again.

Sadly, there are some who just in the middle of the sorrow. They loved and now they build a huge wall in between. I watch and set my hands doing nothing. Sad. Why? Why? WHY? I can be very sure that you will be laughing for this in the future. That is impossible you still hating each other when you are holding your child in your arms. You will smile and drop a tear for ending you teenage life like that, feeling ridiculous.

Don’t you miss that? Well, I do.

Got back some exam papers, not satisfied. Again, I feel great sorry to teachers and blaming myself for doing so badly. The most interesting so far is english essay, personally i like Edmund’s motivative SUCCESS and Audrey’s real story of “the class will not be the same without him”.

I wish friendship is the only ship that will never wreck :)

Regretted. Regrets. and no more.

2010-10-20T22:32:00.003+08:00

Just finished trial exam today. I am FREE!!! *super duper excited* Again, i learnt quite a lot in the past 3 weeks. Apart from the threatening questions, i know myself better. I can't say that the odds are against me because it is my own fault and mistakes. I promise I will change, change for better and hopefully for the best. Attended a meaningful and inspiring talk by Dr. Morni. "Saya mahu!!!" :) Regretted going back earlier and didn't have the tasteful lunch :(

There is only around one month time for SPM. That means secondary school life will be ended very soon. Graduation Day is on 15th Nov. and we have to plan what performances we want and what to buy for the teachers. T-shirt is in the process. For us, we have a simple design but 5E has more complex design. We will see which one is better :P

Signing off.

That’s the end.

2010-09-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

All things seem smooth to me. Yea, that is a lie. :) Nothing left to say and I just wanna do what ever I want to. That’s how I live for me, myself, alone. Yea, I am such a selfish jerk. I just don’t want to do the same thing again and again. I’m sick of this. I tried and trying, maybe. DAAAAA~ I’m done of this. off off OFF!!!!! A teenage life with movies, music, friends, family and a little bit of flirting is enough, for me.

Some of other friends started to plan for their holiday plans after SPM. I think I should join them, would be fun :) But, I feel tired at the moment. Motivation needed. KIA KAHA~ :)

what should I really DO??

2010-08-31T14:32:00.001+08:00

Just gone through facebook and tumblr. I am… totally lost.

Currently

2010-08-29T03:15:00.001+08:00

I am currently free from anything. Just feel like nothing to do. Yea, i have a account test on Monday but when it is right after the excel, i just don’t have any motivation to read. :O

Back with my usual lifestyle, movie.

That’s love. Protecting in a way that willing to do anything. Fresh to the market though.

God. Human. Demon. I wish i could be the son of Zeus :) It is pretty cool to have some power that beyond human abilities. yea, it is a little bit old because i missed it out for months :P

In real life, there is the same. I am Human. However there are just some bullshits who always tell lies. Come on, be a man and don’t ever pretending that you didn’t do the same thing i did. Please have guts and admit it. I am sick of you!!! That’s why i don’t like to talk to you guys, STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE!!! You guys really are just meant to be one gang, one gang of shits. Yea, you got me.

Phoo… Music… Currently i am listening to Leehom’s lastest album, simply nice :)

Love the song《你不知道的事》:)

It is just something that we always ignored and don’t even care about it. Are we cruel? No. It is just that we don’t really know. Be a true listener and goes with the feeling and be confidence to make a choice. BE STRONG. I am mute as i saw that. I have nothing to say, nothing to be a subject. I was thinking to do that but you took the first step before me. The road not taken and i will do what the poet did. I may slap myself for doing this, but i have to be strong. I have to chasing for my dreams, i want to break the boundaries. TRUST ME. It will be gone.

Just started to watch《公主嫁到》It really makes me laugh :D

Hope You Can Read This

2010-07-24T18:44:00.001+08:00

Theory of a Deadman - Not Meant To Be

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It is way too hard for me to explain all over again. If you really can’t get what i meant, that’s the way we should stick with, just like the song. Make it simple please. Make it through until the end, i think it will be better when we are not seeing each other. It is just few months left.

It’s not holidays

2010-06-05T13:29:00.002+08:00

Yes, this is just a break. I was and will be very busy with my mountain-like homework and projects. I think i am the reason that makes me busy like hell. I am lazy, lazy to move, in any issue. I never been lazy like this before, just like do nothing the whole day will make me…… happy :P

Did go out with my primary school’s friends. They had changed a lot. Had fun staying with them. I can be the childish me :D

Staying at home will be my movie time. Feed myself with movie is just another way to comfort myself. watched some old movies, simply great :)

This gives me a new definition of love. Love is simple and fun.

This shows me how brave a tiny boy is, don’t judge a book by its cover.

A CNY movie. True friendship lasts long no matter what happen.

The Chair

2010-04-17T17:14:00.003+08:00

*Don’t ask why am i like beh song in this pic. I smiled but they said it should be serious in the 1st pic so it turned out like this ~.~ luckily the gang at the back acted cool if not i will be the only with a face like that.*

Long time ago, we had a malay drama presentation – KERUSI. This is the very first group work we have in Form 5 :D love the moment we spent together and surely i won’t forget this sweet memory~

Ade smelling her “rejoice” hair while watching Run Devil Run.

Soong’s parents’ Honda City.

Unexpectedly, the commercials made us laugh A LOT~ Cal-YUM & Ribenna :D

FYI, Kwan Hew Lam was the one who lend her house for us to ~~play,eat,sleep~~ practice with no parents at home. Imagine 17 teen boys and girls in a house, we can do anything we wanted :P

Us, dancing NOBODY… Trust me, Pang Yong Tong is very pro at this :O

Love this pic. Btw, Ade and Felix are like those celebrities get caught when they are holding hands.

This is the worst thing i ate so far D:

Ah Lau(out of the camera), Kevin, Soong and Felix dancing SORRY, SORRY :D

3 beautiful servants of mine :P

Me explaining how to make the dolphin-sound-mix-with-making-love-sound between Masayu(Tan Pui Lei) and Putra(Ricky). This is how a dull drama changed and becomes an interesting one :D

With his dirty mind, he knows everything i mean and do it 100% wonderful.

The Sissy Lemon(Elton) and Gay Couple(Felix & Soong)

If i was Ribenna(Lau Chong Yen), i will kick his butt and run away XD

On the big day, we all were well prepared and ready to bring on the show. So far, i didn’t get any negative feedback and who cares if it was all about Friendship.

I personally love the whole process of this, with whole bunch of friends doing such group work. Plus, no one was missing in every single practice :D

P.S. Jeremy, i didn’t mean to make you feel jealous. It is good if you were here but…… too bad… *wink* :P

lines

2010-03-19T02:02:00.002+08:00

I give you my word
I give you my heart
Every word I say is true
This i promise you

I promise you :)

Last Night

2010-03-18T00:18:00.002+08:00

Finish preparing all the things for drama. Will go to Kwan’s house tmr right after tuition. Still feeling lazy, but i have to finish all the pending stuffs in this very short holiday. Watched Little Big Soldier in PPS, it is a nice movie. Funny yet meaningful. Worth to watch. And i have to say Wang Leehom did change a lot in this movie. For Jackie Chan, he did not fight much in this movie but another way round :)

Well, i was very happy last night. Sweet in the heart. All i want is this, the way how it flows, the words that melt my heart. I will keep my promise if you do your part :) It takes a very long time for me to feel like that way. Thx for making a good night for me :) I’ve found a reason for me to change who i used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.

In the mood.

2010-03-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

Yes~ i am really really into holidays. Not touching any books. Stick my face on the computer screen more than 12 hours a day :D Feeling good for having laziness to control my whole body. Love sleeping. Wakes up after 12pm everyday. It is sad to wake up VERY EARLY tmr morning… 7AM !!!!! Will do the drama practice and all the preparations. Hope we manage to finish it in one day, so i can relax for one more day.

Watched Percy Jackson and Olympians - The Lighting Thief in PPS *FINALLY*. I love the concept of the movie as it mix modern time with the old story and the power of water is AWESOME O.O PPS is very slow and greedy for not sharing all the new movies, they only open to the VIPs who need to pay them. There are many, really, movies hit the big screen last few months, but now i only watched one. Waiting list: Valentine’s Day, Alice in Wonderland, Remember me, Dear John, and many others chinese movies. Please tell if you have any of these movies. I AM HUNGRY!!! FEED ME!!!! Gossip Girl is back but now i want 90210~

Looking forward for the prefect camp. Hope it will be a really memorable camp. I think it will be fun to have all the friends as the AJKs of the camp. It’s time for us to treat the juniors :D KahMan said he will visit us one night and go out for yum cha. It will be fun :D

Something HOT

2010-03-13T03:08:00.001+08:00

Can’t Catch

2010-02-25T23:45:00.001+08:00

There were some many times i lied. Lied for the same stupid things. I don’t like it but damn it, i have to. My mind is set to respond so. I can’t help. Many asked but i answered the same and stabbing myself again and again. I scared. I am trying to run away. I have no idea how awkward i am. I hope the mask that i am wearing doesn’t and never will show the true me. Please. Yea, i hate the past. It always tells me how stupid i was. Now, I’m stuck!!!!

XL for Xtra Large

2010-02-17T23:52:00.001+08:00

Went to Kwan HL’s house on the 2nd day of CNY, for mostly the whole day. Going to her house is like a must to me, to feel the friendly-ness of her parents, the noise we made when we gamble, the “boom” Kevin brought :D

Tata~ This is another motive i went to KHL’s house, get to see the stupiddumbhornyaussieguy Jeremy.

Me & Jeremy planned to meet as there were many people in KHL’s house *actually this gamble-spirited jeremy wants to feel the atmosphere of gambling* Setting up the webcam is wasting time, trying many times and finally made it. He do change a bit as you can see, he is showing off his so called long hair. I can know that he still sleeps earlier, can you see his smiles fade through times?? Because that time was almost 9pm there O.O I bet in the last pic he sees the clock on the wall. ~.~

In the air-conditioned room, all gamblers gamble like mad. You can choose from “dok dok” to “cho dai di”, from “la mi” to “ka long” :D

Kwan’s 50 bucks lost in 5 mins :O

And so, they got their assets to play the next game :D

I learn “la mi” this year. Love it :D

Had a small break before we start again. The girls did the clean up D:

Had “ka long” for awhile and no one liked it :(

Had beer to end the fun night :D

S for small

2010-02-17T17:47:00.001+08:00

In the very 1st day of CNY, as what i usually did for the past 10 years, went to my dad’s office D: The lion dance wasn’t that good, it fell down TWICE~ O.O

We tended to take a jumping shoot. But i get my bro doing bakchilization instead :D

At night, went to Dex’s house. Satisfied my stomach and played with his cousin.

That was only a small group of people came. We had fun playing “cho dai di” :D

We got this beside all the trophies dex and his sis get. Dex was 7 years old~~

Love the tv set and the blue lights :)

~~Gamble~~ Play “dok dok” for awhile with mas airline cards.

Last but not least, i did enjoy the night :D Thx for inviting.

Still Lazy

2010-02-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

Had Sports Days this week… It was very very tiring… I’m still suffering from the gift that the sun gives me =.= I’ll talk more on this next time… Jeremy, here you go… GAMBLING~~

Catching Up

2010-01-30T16:34:00.001+08:00

Still remember that i have to fight back… just stay tuned… i will capture that “special” moment even in 1 second……

Recently i am having drama and marching practice. The drama is working ~~like a~~ ~~snail~~ a bit slow… and i didn’t join much in marching *feeling guilty*

Wednesday was a chaos day. All of the students especially the seniors were running around to find their members and changing the uniforms. All of the time of taking photos crumbled up together. >=(

Although we are already Form 5 but we are still us, do not change much… We are still a family, a noisy and playful gang, talking gossips, telling dirty jokes, fooling others, sleeping in bio class…

We still have a ~~dirty-minded~~ professional teacher, Mr. Bernard teaching us Malay. He is getting married in the coming April :D and of course we are wishing another 2 teachers can have the same thing :P Leave 5 tables for us~ :D

The only difference in this year is we have only 53 students in the name list. Jeremy went to Australia and i can’t copy his works anymore =( Hope you can enjoy your new life over there. Take care :)

On 21st Jan, it was my 18th birthday. It was a really really plain birthday. I did not celebrate it. And which making it even worst is it was a stupiduselesswastingtime exam day. There is a saying about age comes along with wisdom. No wonder i feel smarter already. :D

Promote EXTRA

2010-01-09T16:04:00.002+08:00

All i did and doing is promoting my posters. Back in December last year, i had nothing to do and i saw PC GURU was announcing a poster designing contest. I read all the terms and regulations and i decided to join or give it a try. I chose 2 pictures and did a little photoshop and send them to Intel.

The thing that tracks my soul for joining this contest is the prize in the People’s Choice Category. It is all depending on the “like” of the posters. Of course, it requires ONE winner only. I have never thought that it will this hard to promote.

I am here, truly for my heart, begging all of you for a favour that you can surely do it. Please help me for promoting/spreading the words/news so that i can win. I am running out of ideas for promoting, any tips?? So, PLEASE use your relationship network to promote. If you don’t know how to help, refer to THIS!!! Kindly thank you. :D

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2010-01-08T15:02:00.003+08:00

Last night, I realized my posters that i submitted earlier in the holidays posted in facebook. I am panic as this is my very first time for joining a contest like this. These days i will stick my face to the computer to ask others' help. PLEASE HELP me to be the one who got the most "Like" to win.

Post this to your facebook wall or your blog to ask others to lend a hand :)

PLS VOTE for ME and "LIKE" Chong Yih Lip's PHOTOS~~~~ :D
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1st Day, Last Year

2010-01-04T22:07:00.002+08:00

We all had the very first day in our old high school today. Many friends changed their hair style, spectacles, even their body shape. We had a boring school day, were doing nothing but waiting the clock to hit 1.20pm and went home. And, we have PJ for this year ~.~ For Tues and Wed, we have one can't-reach-two-island extra class until 2pm. Changed a little bit of my tuition places and i was the only male in that tuition class O.O Gotta hit the sack, school tomorrow for a whole day. *help!!*

The Last Week

2009-12-27T18:35:00.003+08:00

Say HELLOOO to 2010~~ Hope it will be a great year for all of us =) I am turning 18 very soon ;D

I will sign off to KK tomorrow for a week, countdown for 2010 at there. These pics are exactly the things i will do when i get there. And my cousin (the groom) will have his wedding on 1.1.2010 :D

Going back to school tomorrow to grab some textbooks for next year. Right after i get back here, the last year of my high school life starts. Can’t wait for that =)

I wish you a Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T14:52:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is Christmas already~~ Loving this event very much although we can’t play snow fight =)

And, New Year 2010 is coming very very soon~!! Btw, i passed my driving test today and i finally can drive =D

I wish you a Merry Christmas, you buy me a Bumblebee~ ;D Santa, i am good kid, please make my wish comes true =P

We Rock!!

2009-12-23T04:00:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was 冬至 (Winter Solstice), a Chinese traditional event. As a Chinese and son-of-the-dragon, i celebrated it in my grandpa’s place. We had a very nice dinner and watermelon as desert. ;D

Tiger Prawns~~ cost RM 70++

We didn’t have these tasteful balls this year =(

Is it the end of the post?? I thought the night was still YOUNG~

So i called my cousin to bring us out, member of the night: Yvonne, Ah Kiun, Ah Ying & ME!!!

No, i can’t enter this place. I am a good boy =)

Yeah, we went to The Rock Cafe~

Mocha Latte * Lip ;D

We played “hong dim” and i invented another uses of marker pen =)

I won!!!

Introducing my cousin, Ah Ying a.k.a Miko. Not available =.=

We played this and sadly i lost T.T Someone kicked the table >=#

Later, Yvonne’s friends joined us, Fenny & LiLi.

We had 2nd round and this time it was 20++ levels O.O

The driver of the night, Yvonne had the bad luck =)

“Don’t play play ah~”

We also played “cho dai di”.

I won again. wuahahahaha~

Merry Christmas!! We played blue-and-black-cross-cross-game :D

Blue: Yvonne, Black: Me. Trust me, she is not a “SOK 4” (pretty girl) ;D

Instead, she is a pig =D

Ah Ying: Pls use SKII Me: Mahal bah! Yvonne: nvm lah! Doesn’t need to our own money to buy.

Family of Chong~

We used almost half of the whiteboard ;D

We got nothing to do, so we lepak-ed at Indah.

Yvonne a.k.a The Pig, still available =( Her famous quote lately: I am a good girl, I drive below 20km/h.

Me: Boring lah. Play some rock music!!!

Coffee (mocha latte) + rock music + the right mood = insane :D

Had a fun night with cousins =) *sore throat*

Cat or Monkey?

2009-12-21T18:56:00.001+08:00

I found this when i surfing in Youtube. I was impressed by the numbers of views this video got. O.O Max your speaker volume and you can hear what the lady said at 0:12.

This is one of the replies for the video and i think this would be the lamest =.=

Don’t judge a Movie by its Poster

2009-12-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

If you asked me whether i would spend my a few bucks to watch this movie or not back in September, my answer could be a big “NO”. Because when i saw this poster hanging in the cinema, my first impression was “what a lousy movie~”. But, i have no more movies to be watched in PPS these days. So, i decided to give it a try. KABOOM~ I like it =) It is an animation with a unique storyline.

This is Flint (main character) and his invention, the food maker =d

The burgers falling from the sky~

I like the monkey and the look of Flint’s dad. Both of them have their own funny part in the movie, trust me.

Can you see those ice cream?? They are playing ice-cream-snow-fight =D

From here, you can learn a new way of kissing *3*

Of course, there are still more and more funny things happen when you watch this movie. I watched this when i was having my lunch ^^ Here is the trailer…… CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS……

Old Friends

2009-12-16T00:04:00.001+08:00

I went out with some of my primary school friends, Ng San Ping, Yvonne, Chok Pit Thau and Liew Yei Shan. We went to a hakka restaurant in Indah *i forget the name of the restaurant* because San Ping and Pit Thaw didn’t eat yet. Those who were just having ice chinese tea keep talking and catching up with each other. That was really fun to hear what they had gone through these years.

After they finish their meal, we walked to Jesselton Cafe to have some drinks but the sofas were already occupied. So, we went to Equator but it was closed *ARRGHH* and finally we went to Subway Cafe instead.

I ordered a Green Apple Float, quite nice though. We continued to chit-chatting and then Yvonne’s friend shown up. We all thought she likes him because she likes tall and fair guy. They even went to her car for 15 minutes to……… fix her car’s radio. Then we went back home with Yvonne’s free ride, nice to have a friend that can drive^^

Movies & Dramas ’09

2009-12-13T22:33:00.004+08:00

These were some of the movies i watched in this year. Some were old movies but i watched them twice.

I can't wait to watch these in PPS. =P

Holidays

2009-12-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

We are having around 90 days of holidays. Many of us are leaving sandakan for their trip. No more outing for the coming days i think. For me, the only chances i can get myself out of this house are breakfast/dinner and driving lessons. *yeah, i haven’t get my license yet*

These pictures were taken when my “sifu” was doing some stuffs in the office and i waited him in the car alone. I cannot take my camera up high. >.<

This was when Edmund learning how to drive for the 1st time back in June.

Move in

2009-12-09T13:35:00.003+08:00

Now i am officially move into Blogger. This is not my 1st blog but it is the 2nd. Previously i was using Spaces. FYI, Spaces is really slow, you can wait the page loading for ages. Ultimately, i hope i can update my blog often especially when there are some occasions.

I got this when i couldn’t upload my profile picture to Twitter. It stated that “Twitter is over capacity”.